I went back to work the next morning because not going back would have been the wrong move.
I’ve built a career out of knowing when to perform and when to disappear and when to stand very still and wait to see what the situation requires. Going back to work was what Nora the screener did, so I went back.
Brian had coffee ready. I thanked him. I read through the morning referrals. I did all of it.
Vera’s file was already closed. That’s how fast it goes once someone is collected. The case resolves, the record updates, and the station’s statistics get a small adjustment. I noted it the way I note all of them and moved on.
Director Hale came by at nine to ask how the week was looking. I told him steady, no backlog, a couple of interesting referrals coming Thursday. He nodded and said good work and went back to his office across the hall, where I could see him through the glass partition sitting at his desk, reading something.
I watched him for a moment longer than I should have.
Then I opened the historical records database and started pulling files.
I told myself I was auditing identification rates. It’s a legitimate task. I do it twice a year as part of our station’s performance review. If anyone asked, I had an answer ready that was true enough to be convincing.
The numbers came back the way I knew they would. I’d already seen Vera’s version. But seeing her photocopied hand-circled version of the data is different from sitting with the actual source records, the original database with its full columns and timestamps and handler signatures.
She was right.
The identification rate across all stations, going back to the founding of the program, told a story that the official summary documents did not. The rate had been roughly stable for the first twenty years, then began declining. Slowly at first. Then less slowly.
Extrapolated backward, the curve implied that in the program’s early years, somewhere between eight and twelve percent of all screenings returned a positive identification.
Now it was less than one percent. Across all stations. Nationwide.
There are two ways to read that number.
Either the Hollowed had become genuinely rare, a population in terminal decline. Or the Hollowed had already largely been removed, and the ones who remained, the ones like me, were the ones who had been careful enough and lucky enough and willing enough to do whatever it took to stay unidentified.
For me, whatever it took had meant making sure I was never the screener with nothing to show.
I looked at the ceiling for a while. Thought about sixty-two people. Thought about my mother, who died when I was nineteen. Who must have survived every screening she ever faced, right up until the one she didn’t.
I went back to the records.
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Director Hale had been with the station for eleven years. I had been here for eight of those eleven. He was the reason I’d been hired, actually. He interviewed me personally, which was unusual.
Told me afterward that he’d liked my instincts.
I pulled his personnel file, which I had legitimate access to as station manager. Certification records, performance reviews, the usual. Then I pulled his screening history, which took a different access level but was not outside my clearance.
Screeners have to be verified too. Screeners especially.
His most recent screening was four years ago. Clean. The one before that, four years before that. Clean. I went back through all of them, seven in total going back to his early career, all clean, all signed by a certified screener, all filed appropriately.
I cross-referenced the signatures.
Three different screeners had processed his files. I pulled their personnel records. Two of them had since retired. The third had been let go for unspecified performance reasons five years ago. I tried to find her current contact information through the registry and got a closed record, which happens when someone is collected.
I sat with that for a moment.
Then I pulled the file metadata. The timestamps, the server logs, the chain of custody that every document accumulates as it moves through the system.
I’m not an IT specialist but I understand the basic architecture well enough. Documents have histories. Every access, every edit, every migration to a new server format leaves a trace.
Hale’s seven screening records had all been accessed and repackaged during a system migration eight years ago. Right before I was hired.
The repackaging was logged as routine, which it would have been if it had been routine. But routine migrations touch thousands of files at once and leave a particular kind of metadata signature, and these seven files had been touched individually.
One at a time. Someone who knew what they were doing but didn’t quite know how the system actually tracked its work.
The originals had never existed.
Someone had built him a past. Had built him the paper history of a person who had been screened and cleared and certified and never flagged. They’d done it well. If I hadn’t been looking for the migration signature I wouldn’t have found it.
I closed the database. Opened my morning referral forms and stared at them.
Behind the glass partition, Hale was still at his desk. Head bent over whatever he was reading.
I worked steadily for the next two hours. I identified and cross-referenced and made notes and sent two routine emails and handled a phone query from a flagging supervisor in the north district. I did everything correctly. My hands were still.
At half past eleven I began gathering my things. Coat. Bag. The small personal items I keep on my desk, a pen I like, a photograph, a ceramic cup Brian had given me for my work anniversary. I put them all into my bag slowly and without any visible urgency.
“Leaving for lunch?” Brian asked.
“Early day,” I said. “Family thing. I mentioned it last week.”
I had not mentioned it last week. But Brian nodded and said of course, have a good evening, and turned back to his screen.
I walked toward the door. Hale’s office was to my left, glass partition, door open. I didn’t look at him directly.
“Working late, Nora?”
I stopped. Turned. He was standing in the doorway of his office now, which meant he had been watching me pack and had not said anything until I was almost out. His face was exactly as I had always known it. Pleasant, professional, the particular warmth of someone who takes an interest in their staff.
“Early day actually,” I said. “Family thing.”
“Of course.” He smiled. “Get some rest. You’ve been looking tired.”
I smiled back. Said thank you. Walked to the door and pushed through it.
Outside, the air was cold and the street was full of people doing ordinary things. I walked half a block before I let myself breathe.
Then I stopped and thought about his smile. The specific quality of it. How it had not shifted at all the entire time I was speaking. How it had sat on his face like something placed there, held at exactly the right angle, performing concern with a precision I recognized because I had been practicing the same performance my entire life.
The difference was that I knew I was performing.
I pulled one of Vera’s folders out of my bag and opened it on the sidewalk, ignoring the people moving around me. Found the list at the bottom. Looked at the names above mine, the two at the top of the column.
The second name was a screener I knew, retired now, who had always been kind to me and who I had never thought about twice.
The first name was Director Hale.
He’d known what he was before I did. He’d been on a list assembled by people trying to find their own kind, and someone had marked him as one of us and put his name at the top, and then somehow he had ended up here, running a station, hiring me, complimenting my instincts in an interview eight years ago.
I thought about that smile sitting unchanged on his face.
I thought about what it meant to perform something you actually were, versus what it meant to perform something you weren’t.
And I understood, standing on that cold sidewalk with a dead woman’s research in my hands, that I had no idea which one Hale was doing.